Day 26 Livingroom of Philippe, Carcassonne

Having my ishnaan in the pool, which is a good preparation of the river at Karta his place. Philippe, who is in the training with Karta, has welcomed me very warmly. Carcassonne is a beautiful city and i am tested again, as David, the hitchhiker who drives with me to Carcassonne is going to Perignal (where Haribhajan is living) and afterwards to Barcelona and then on to Marrocco. I am thinking by myself, why have I decided to go to Karta? what is it that brings me there and what is it i?m taking from there.. why do i have this doubt, is it that i want to run away? When David leaves the car, to put his tent somewhere in the bush, I am so happy I am on this path and when I arrive at Philippe, I am welcomed with a nice meal and warm people around me. I feel blessed and I know again why I am on this way? The only thing i don?t understand of myself is, why do I doubt so much? Everytime i doubt this way, something beautiful is happening to me and I feel happy?. So stop doubting!