Day 29 - 35 Le Martinet, Teacher Training by Karta Singh Prosperity week Level II

Day 29 is a very long day, the longest one in my entier life, as it started on Saterday the 7th and ended on Saterday the 14th. Time is flexible;-) Why, well, this week is my fourth of the six week training Kundalini Yoga Level II teacher training... Well, I realized, thanks to Akal, that also this is a trick of my mind, no extra long day at Karta's. Every day is a new day, so every day location is different and I'm different. Actually, I didn't have to do the whole journey, looked at it from this prespective, isn't that also the conclusion of the Alchemist by Paulo Coehlo. 

The whole program takes two years and I can tell you, it is a life changing and soul healing week. During this week, I came to the insight that this whole sadhanatour was one of the tricks of my mind to run away from my fear for success based on this deep, deep feeling inside me, based on the life of my anchestors, that I don't deserve a prosperous life!

This week I surrendered my ego and conquered my fear. I wanted to run away so badly, hide from prosperity, run from responsibilities, the whole week, but I did not, I surrendered and stayed... I was even one of the last ones to leave, as it is such a beautiful place in the French Alpes with the river and the mountains...

I had read before that it is possible to change ones destiny and that every day you wake up, you have a change to do that... Reading about it is one thing, doing it is something else. Doing sadhana, waking up every day in the ambrosial hours in full consciousness, takes me closer to taking that step and change my destiny and free my soul of the pain from my anchestors. As I write this, it really feels big and I wonder, did I really do that, is that possible, just in one week? During some meditations I did this week, I felt that deep inside me this feeling is changed and the seed of my believe that I do deserve a prosperous, a pro - spirit life, has been planted in very rich ground. Now all I can do, is nourish it and let it grow within me. So I will reduce the space for doubt little by little and just thinking about that, wauw.. that will give me a lot of spare time.